This was written a while back and I found it so I figured that I would post it. :)
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about fairy tales and happily ever afters. I used to believe that every story needed to begin with a "Once upon a time, in a far away place..." for it even be worth reading. If it didn't have a "and they lived happily ever after." at the end I didn't want any part of it. I wanted to believe that Cinderella and Prince Charming lived in their big castle on top of that hill without ever fighting till they died. I wanted Sleeping Beauty's knight in shining armor to come and sweep her off her feet and take her away till they could live in peace. I wanted freaking Shrek and Fiona to do whatever ogres do in a swap and never have to worry about what the other ogres thought. I wanted to believe in fairy tales. I still like those fairy tales and every thing but my life has changed. For the better of course, but change none the less. This isn't me settling for less than I deserve but instead of Prince Charming, I'm looking just for a guy that I can be myself around and joke about silly things and just be plain happy. I want a guy who can make me laugh and smile. A guy that I can get my way with but also put me in my place. I want a mutual understanding of where we both stand. I just want to get along with someone. Just once, I want it to work out. Just, have a decent relationship where I don't worry about what he's doing and if that girl who he's just friends with is making a move on him or vise versa. I don't want to fight over every little thing. I don't want every word that comes out of my mouth to be wrong. I want to open up to someone and I want him to actually listen. I want him to care about me and love me unconditionally, no matter what. I'm far from perfect and I have flaws. That's what makes me human and I want someone to accept that and not yell at me for that. I just want it to work.
I understand that when two people are in a committed relationship that they will fight and agrue. I know. I'm not saying that I never want to fight and get mad. I'm saying that when ever me and who ever that guy is that I like fight that we won't bite each others heads off and shout awful words that can't be taken back at each other. I want to be able to talk about what ever upset the other and not feel awful about it for the rest if our relationship. I don't want to feel like I'm not good enough anymore. I want to be able to say honestly that I am good enough and that I'm happy and I know that my special guy feels the same way. I just want to respected and loved and happy.
So there you have it. If Mr. Not So Perfect Prince Charming reads this be sure to come knock at my door and ya know... bring flowers or whatever. What girl doesn't like getting flowers?
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about fairy tales and happily ever afters. I used to believe that every story needed to begin with a "Once upon a time, in a far away place..." for it even be worth reading. If it didn't have a "and they lived happily ever after." at the end I didn't want any part of it. I wanted to believe that Cinderella and Prince Charming lived in their big castle on top of that hill without ever fighting till they died. I wanted Sleeping Beauty's knight in shining armor to come and sweep her off her feet and take her away till they could live in peace. I wanted freaking Shrek and Fiona to do whatever ogres do in a swap and never have to worry about what the other ogres thought. I wanted to believe in fairy tales. I still like those fairy tales and every thing but my life has changed. For the better of course, but change none the less. This isn't me settling for less than I deserve but instead of Prince Charming, I'm looking just for a guy that I can be myself around and joke about silly things and just be plain happy. I want a guy who can make me laugh and smile. A guy that I can get my way with but also put me in my place. I want a mutual understanding of where we both stand. I just want to get along with someone. Just once, I want it to work out. Just, have a decent relationship where I don't worry about what he's doing and if that girl who he's just friends with is making a move on him or vise versa. I don't want to fight over every little thing. I don't want every word that comes out of my mouth to be wrong. I want to open up to someone and I want him to actually listen. I want him to care about me and love me unconditionally, no matter what. I'm far from perfect and I have flaws. That's what makes me human and I want someone to accept that and not yell at me for that. I just want it to work.
I understand that when two people are in a committed relationship that they will fight and agrue. I know. I'm not saying that I never want to fight and get mad. I'm saying that when ever me and who ever that guy is that I like fight that we won't bite each others heads off and shout awful words that can't be taken back at each other. I want to be able to talk about what ever upset the other and not feel awful about it for the rest if our relationship. I don't want to feel like I'm not good enough anymore. I want to be able to say honestly that I am good enough and that I'm happy and I know that my special guy feels the same way. I just want to respected and loved and happy.
So there you have it. If Mr. Not So Perfect Prince Charming reads this be sure to come knock at my door and ya know... bring flowers or whatever. What girl doesn't like getting flowers?
<3333 this!!!!!
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